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[adalger]

Where have you gone?
Why are you so quiet?
What's going on
When you shut yourself away?

I've got to hide.
Hiding's not a lie; it
Means, deep inside,
There is nothing safe to say

Because I know it when my brain
Gets all stupid and insane
And I shut up shut down shut you off
To shut away my pain.

So if you want, I'll let it out,
Throw my tantrums, cry and shout,
But the bottom of that bitter trough
Is full of fear and doubt.

Who built this wall?
What lies behind it?
How can I call
When it seems like you can't hear?

I laid every brick.
There's a door, but I can't find it.
I stay inside because I'm sick,
Stay silent out of fear

Because I know it when my brain
Gets all stupid and insane
And I shut up shut down shut you off
To shut away my pain.

So if you want, I'll let you see
The dark and evil side of me,
But the bottom of that bitter trough
Is full of misery.

When will you be back?
Can't you hear me crying?
The loving that I lack,
I need to get from you.

I'll be back when I can live.
Can't you see I'm dying?
You have all that I can give,
And all that I can do

But I know it when my brain
Gets all stupid and insane
And I shut up shut down shut you off
To shut away my pain.

So if you want, I'll do my best
To do without the rest,
But the bottom of that bitter trough
Is full of emptiness.

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