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Friday, November 20th, 2015 10:37 pm
I have been a sad and absent little blogger on DW. Do any of my old friends still remember me around here?

There are so many plot bunnies hiding in the corners of my mind, and I feel like I'd like to take a crack at them, but I don't know if I have the kind of support structure I need to sustain an effort. (I also don't know if having a support structure actually helps me at all, given my executive dysfunction and other lovely autistic traits.)

Anyway, hello?
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Thursday, December 20th, 2012 10:21 pm
Sometimes, I just want to turn everything off at night, and let this game be over, and start a new game in the morning.
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Saturday, May 28th, 2011 10:51 pm
Dear Picasa,

where is the option of DON'T SCAN MY HARD DRIVE AT ALL, YOU NOSY PIECE OF SHIT!

Thanks,
-A
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Friday, May 27th, 2011 05:45 pm
To my anonymous donor: THANK YOU!! ~SQUEEEEEEEE~
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Monday, May 2nd, 2011 08:25 am
The Grave of the Hundred Head

Have we finally collected enough heads to pile on Ground Zero yet? (I am not so optimistic as Kipling to think the guns will be silenced now, though.)
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Sunday, September 26th, 2010 01:12 pm
“In order to rally people, governments need enemies. They want us to be afraid, to hate, so we will rally behind them. And if they do not have a real enemy, they will invent one in order to mobilize us.” Thich Nhat Hanh (Vietnamese monk, activist and writer)

This is the status quote of someone I knew in high school, who since he friended me a few days ago has been commenting on my wall posts with very narrow fundamentalist propaganda denouncing Islam, pornography, homosexuality, drug use, welfare ...

But this quote, from a monk that he neglects to mention is a *Buddhist* monk, describes exactly what he and his coreligionists are doing. And this after he asserted that society should not try to take care of all its members, because the poor need to take more "personal responsibility" for their condition.

Really? When you've been telling us all these years that traditional marriage isn't failing because traditional married heterosexuals aren't taking personal responsibility for the quality and commitment of their relationships it's because of those damned homosexuals? And we're not being targeted by terrorists because of our refusal as Americans to take personal responsibility for the lethal and disastrous effects our foreign policy has on billions of the world's poor, it's because of those damned muslims? And the ghettos full of gangs and drugs and killing aren't a product of centuries of social policy systematically disenfranchising the poor, it's because of those damned niggers?

We've been hearing all those same lies for years -- for decades -- and you haven't even noticed you're one of the people telling them? Or is this some kind of ironic pointing-out that you can tell people exactly what you're doing, and they still won't notice because you've ensured they're either too poorly educated to be able to tell, or too busy grubbing for sustenance to care?

If you can call a society acceptable when it can allow people to starve and blame the starving for starving, you have a seriously skewed concept of the purpose of society. If you can do that and call yourself a Christian ... well, all I can say is, you haven't read the Gospels very closely. Either that, or I missed the part where Jesus said to the poor, "Sorry, you're on your own. Take some personal responsibility and stop being poor."
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Friday, September 17th, 2010 02:40 pm
I hate memes.

1) What is your favorite mode of travel? (Car, train, plane, etc). Car. I like control over when and where I stop for breaks, and the freedom to alter the itinerary arbitrarily.

2) Where is the northernmost place you've traveled? The southernmost? Northernmost: Someplace in the vicinity of Vancouver, BC. Southernmost: a spot in the Pacific Ocean just south of the Equator, just west of the Panama Canal.

3) What is the last place you visited for the first time? Long Island. I had the chance to visit a long-lost friend.

4) Of all the places you've traveled, which is your favorite? Home. But I don't think that really counts, so the prize goes to ... Smoky Mountain National Park, in Tennessee, where my Boy Scout troop camped when we went to the 1984 World's Fair.

5) Where would you most like to travel to next? Toledo, Ohio. I miss my family. And many more long-lost friends.
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Monday, July 19th, 2010 10:02 am
http://www.bbc.co.uk/news/world-us+canada-10634044
http://rocnow.com/article/local-news/20107190315

Here's yet another degradation of Iroquois sovereignty. This is somewhat a local issue for me, because I have to listen to people on a regular basis who cry because the stores on the reservations aren't charging sales tax on cigarettes. At least that issue is relatively immune to this kind of humiliation.

I suppose I have to call this a signal boost, though, rather than a personal issue. I'm told I'm 1/8 Blackfoot, but I have no idea how true that is, nor have I ever been raised with any knowledge of or participation in that culture. Still, it hurts and saddens me that other nations fail to respect the dignity and freedom of these free people in large part because we as US-ians have collectively and repeatedly failed to meet our obligations to them as treaty partners.

I can't say I'm surprised, though. Look how England treats the Irish; can we expect them to treat our natives any better?
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Wednesday, May 26th, 2010 08:33 am
“Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down.”
-Someone I don't know on Facebook

Rather than hijack someone else's journal to rant in the comments, I'm going to rant here. )

tl;dr version: You stay on your side of the line, I'll stay on mine. If you want me to come in, open the fucking door when I knock. I shouldn't have to come with a bulldozer to say "good morning."
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Tuesday, May 18th, 2010 11:01 am
I just realized, many of my subscribers may not realize I write things other than poetry. I've posted intermittently to [community profile] ffvii_100 as well; I need to remind myself to also post some of my poetry to [community profile] poetry as well.
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Friday, July 24th, 2009 02:28 pm
I like being a support volunteer. I wish there were more to do, though. :/ Maybe I'll try to find time to brush up on my Perl and become a baby-dev.
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Wednesday, July 22nd, 2009 03:35 pm
I'm going to rewrite my interest list from scratch sometime within the next two weeks. Then I'm going to revisit the "similar interests" thing to see if anyone new pops up on the radar of people I should be reading.
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Thursday, May 7th, 2009 11:37 am
Last year, I helped design and create a database application to track our location's on-site and off-site document retention, taking a lot of the manual work out of the process of finding out where a particular item is and determining what needs to be shipped out of the building. It's been in use here for some time now, and the people who use it regard it as a pretty important tool, if not quite indispensable.

It's now being implemented in one of the offices in NYC. Yup ... picked up for the home office. :) This is kinda like a local newspaper reporter being syndicated in the New York Times. Not front page, of course, somewhere back in the Business section, but still, very gratifying.
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Thursday, May 7th, 2009 02:46 am
I should have been asleep hours ago. Now it's probably too late to expect that I'll wake up in time for work if I do fall asleep. Four months my life has been ripped apart now, and I just don't seem to be healing on an emotional level at all. My appetite is intermittent at best, my nights are routine torture if I can't find some distraction (and those I do find usually don't help much), my days are mainly a constant struggle to find a mood other than bleak depression or blind lashing-out rage at the interminable and inescapable pain.

I need to get out and be around people, see new faces, make friends, but I'm imprisoned in my own home most of the time because I have the children to be a father for. I don't have the option of just taking off for a while, I don't have the money to get a babysitter from time to time, and I'm starting to collapse under the weight.

I've been able to go drumming every other week for the past few weeks, recently by imposing on the generous nature and the affection for my daughter that the landlord's family has. (They're also my next-door neighbors.) I can't really count on that lasting on a permanent basis, and I don't like doing it anyway because I can't afford to pay them.

I get to go to church on Sunday. There they have a nursery and a children's program, so I don't have to feel guilty about a couple hours of trying to take care of me. It's helping, but it just isn't enough. I don't have the time or the support to get more involved in the activities on other days, where there's socialization that I desperately need.

Tonight's one of those times I truly despair. I just can't make myself believe it'll ever get any better.
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Wednesday, April 22nd, 2009 11:39 am
Something has been calling me.

Not many people know this, but I very nearly decided to attend a seminary school for high school and become a priest. The calling to minister to those in need has been in me for as long as I can remember, which may explain a lot of choices in my life that turned out badly. Perhaps psychology or social work would have been better career choices for me than joining the Navy, but choices made are made.

Obviously, I am not priestly material. I'm not even Christian any more. However, the calling is still there. It was there when I was working with the Youth Groups through the UU church I first attended back home, and continues to pull.

I have begun considering, very seriously, investigating the possibility of becoming a minister in the UU church. I feel so at home there already, and I want to share that with everyone. This may well be the way for me to find meaning and truth in my life.
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Friday, April 17th, 2009 06:14 pm
I learned today at work that a former co-worker, Jamie Welch, died of breast cancer. Good-bye, Jamie.
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Monday, April 13th, 2009 12:31 pm
This morning, not long before I woke up, I had a very bad dream. I remember nothing about it, but when I woke up I did. The only thing that stayed with me was a nearly crippling depression that lasted all morning. I've spent most of my day so far wanting to cry.

Today's poem is my best attempt to express, and purge, the feelings I've been carrying around. Along with some help from my friends, it's working.
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Friday, April 3rd, 2009 06:27 pm
Here's the thing.

As of tomorrow, the children will live with me full-time. Prior, my ex and I were alternating weeks with custody. This means that my social life will be severely curtailed unless I can find someone to sit with the kids from time to time.

The good news is my day-care provider is also my roommate is also my close friend. I have help and support in this. I have in her a better friend than anyone has any right to expect. I need to find more and better ways to show my appreciation.

Ummm ... if anyone wants to send / post some good self-contained erotica (i.e., not fanfic, 'cause she's not so much a fandom person), or mail woman-oriented sex toys, you'd be helping me satisfy a debt to her. ;)
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Saturday, March 28th, 2009 08:03 am
[livejournal.com profile] adalger is my LJ. That has a few things I'll probably eventually post revisions of here, to accompany my new stuff. Dedicated readers can expect all my poetry to be migrated over here.
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